I've been neglecting my blog for a while. I know it probably doesn't matter, I have no idea how many people actually read this anyways. Here's a few updates:

I. I started a new job at this company called Symbian in Foster City. It's pretty low key, a little different that what I'm use to. It's a huge office with barely any employees. I do love that its such a start up type company with all the nice perks, free food, drinks, pool table, games, etc.

II. I actually interviewed with a few companies before sticking with Symbian. First there was Glam Media, which I thought would have been a great spot for me until I met the one of the co-owners who had such a type A personality that it made me really rethink the position. They were located in Brisbane/SF area. The only perk I saw with that company was the Seoul On Wheels truck that parked out front during lunch. I know, who picks a job based on office perks? I DO! I also interviewed with Oracle in Redwood Shores for a HR position. They couldn't get their "stuff" together and the time frame between the hiring point and the start date was whacky.

III. So with tha being said, I think all the people that can't find a job right now can suck it because I interviewed with 3 companies and was doing temp work for two companies at the same time. The jobs are out there, people are just lazy and won't put the work in to find it!

IV. I was diagnosed with a little problem recently and it's been putting a dampner on my life. I've been smiling and going through life like it doesn't matter but it freaking does. I mean, not enjoying sunlight because it hurts? (An no, I do not have mono). I've been constantly worrying about my over all health and lifestyle. I stopped caring about all the stupid things I use to care about and I feel a little better.

V. I went from using a sidekick II to using 4 different cell phones. (All Nokia based, all equally amazing)I know that's not much of an update but I thought it was funny. I love my little sidekick to death. I'm pretty sure it secretly hates me because of all the times I've dropped it.

VI. My relatives are in town fro the Philippines and caused an uproar in the Reyes household. It's been a little nutso since they arrived.

VII. My in-law's Lola (Grandma) had a heart attack recently and I wish her a speedy recovery. She's the cutest thing and I hope she'll be back on her feet in no time! She's 93.

VIII. (I hope my #'s are correct).. I've been trying to make changes in my life. Taking steps to make me a better person. And part of those steps is learning to say NO. and stop people from walking all over me. I'm so sick of it. I am not everyone's puppet. I feel like sicker I got, the nicer I became because I was thinking to myself, IF I DIE.. I don't want to be that asshole that lived a bad life. So I was always making sure everyone was happy and I didn't stop to think, am I happpy? The answer? NO. I am not. I am not happy with myself and what I've become. I am not happy with the decisions I've been making. Im truly upset that I am not worried about ME. It sounds selfish, but I need to take care of me. I'm mentally exhausted. I wish people just listened to me when I spoke. Instead of jumping and trying to fix what ever situation I'm in. Even with the doctors.. I tell him I'm hurting.. I just want them to either prescribe me something, (correctly) or just tell me what I should be doing. I don't need to hear a hollistic treatment. I want to hear, this will make you better. Or if I'm having a bad day. I want to be able to just say, I'm having a bad day. NOT. OK so you're having a bad day, these are the reason why you're having a bad day. Sometimes you just need to vent, a ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. No one to speak back to you, just a calm person to understand.

I think I vented enough. Thanks for listening.